Understanding the Multi-threaded Self for Quantum Identity

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I. Introduction: A Mind Built in Threads

Some people see themselves as one. I never did. I am not one. I am many. Each decision I did not make, each moment I abandoned, each fork I stood before and walked away from—they still echo. They haunt me not with regret, but with potential. This is not a crisis of identity. This is the Multi-threaded Self.
This framework is not spiritual. It’s not scientific. It’s not even psychological. It’s mine. A metaphor. A logic system built for survival in a world that demands masks, linearity, and cohesion. I offer it not as truth, but as resistance.

II. Ghosts of Unrealized Selves

Every choice spawns a ghost. Not a spooky one—an identity fragment. A thread. She who stayed. She who left. She who screamed. She who stayed silent. I carry all of them. They argue. They whisper. Sometimes, they hijack.
These aren’t delusions. They’re data. Imprints. And they help me triangulate where my multiple selves are right now.

III. The Past Is Not Sacred

I stopped believing in the past. Not because of trauma, but because of pattern recognition. Memories shift, evidence disappears and emotions falsify timelines. Why should I trust something that rewrites itself every time I recall it?
The past may be real. But it may also be a narrative I’ve been forced to accept. Either way, it’s not a compass. It’s just one of many corrupted inputs.

IV. Truth Is Sloppy

The pursuit of a singular truth feels like a trap. Objective truth? In a brain built on filters, language, trauma, and biology (neurodivergent identity)? Good luck. My reality is a very sloppy, quantum-reflective construct. A mirror room with no floor.
So instead of chasing ‘truth,’ I trace consistency. Patterns. Reactions. Power shifts. My version of clarity doesn’t need certainty. Just alignment.

V. I’m Not Trying to Save You

Let’s be clear—I didn’t build this to help anyone else. I am not your guru. I’m not enlightened. I’m just trying to stay coherent in a collapsing system of noise and signal.
But if this helps you name something inside yourself, then maybe we’re not that different. Maybe you’re multi-threaded too.

VI. Final Note: Reality Hates Simplicity

If you’ve ever felt like multiple people depending on the hour… if you’ve ever felt like the real ‘you’ got buried under choices you never made… if you’ve ever questioned whether anything is real—welcome. You’re not alone. You’re not broken. You’re just nonlinear.
And neither am I.
This is the Multi-threaded Self. Say hello to your threads.

Why can’t a journalist reveal a source?

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This is sort of an intriguing topic, because, depending on the story, he/she can and will reveal the source.

First of all: a good journalist must always confirm a story from three primary sources – that is the best case scenario, the fact that you actually have three, independent from each other – so no shared information per se.

Secondly: depending of the topic of the story, he/she should reveal the sources – for example, when you present news and interpret them or analyze facts, you are supposed to reveal the sources, because it acts as a Bibliography. If the news is something affecting integrity of individuals, best is NOT to reveal them. Let’s say you stumbled upon a big case and you start to investigate: some senator did something – it is recommended to protect your sources as much as possible – otherwise you will end up with dead informers 🙂 Therefore jeopardizing a potential law suit where your informer was supposed to testify.

The laws of ethic journalism specifically state to never reveal your sources, unless the case is safe to do so (read above why and when).

If the Second Coming of Christ came in the form of a person, what type of person would he/she be? Describe his/her personality and situation in life.

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Have you ever been invited to a work meeting you did not wish to attend and the participants were all chimpanzees?

This is how he would feel. He’d talk to God like: but papa, they are stupid and horrible. I know you created them but it’s time you accept you failed, man. They are nothing compared to us. Look, I will bring them bananas and tell them it’s from my body…and they will believe me! C’mon, man, admit it. You failed. Fiiine, I am going! Sheeesh!

Then he shows up, all dressed up in jeans and t-shirt, feeling low cause he has to do this for papa. Wild curly hair on shoulders…..Dark long curls. Slim fit. Wearing either converse or vans….something cheap and poor quality. Holding 2kgs of bananas.

I see him as an ESTJ (check MBTI for this), going in the meeting room saying: “bow down to your master, you weirdos! I bring peace!

Now listen, chimps, you really need to stop this erratic behaviour. Our numbers are going down in the charts and papa is not pleased. He wants to shut down the project. You fucked up badly.”

Now, you tell me what kind of personality you see? How does he hold himself? Confident? Young and bold? Cracking jokes and being sarcastic?

I think he would even joke like: hey, listen, anyone brought my cross? You idiots…

Do you agree that all the languages you know, and how you use them, reflect who you are as a person?

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As a matter of fact, yes. I agree completely. And I base my opinion on the following:

[insert generic “evolution of languages” lesson, where we discuss about Indo-European languages, Romanic and Germanic etc.]

Each branch of languages presents about the same structure, from a grammar pov. But also from a spelling pov.

When you grow up having a Romanic language as mother tongue (Italian, Spanish, Romanian etc) you tend to see language as a math formula. The prerequisite is you MASTER the language – otherwise you will just sound silly 🙂

If you grow up with a Germanic language (German, English, some Nordic ones etc.) you will see language as an incomplete math formula but with many “sums”.

Let me explain: Germanic languages use complex words that are formed by 2 or more simple words, such as “butterfly” (in English) or Schmetterling (in German). You see, Germans thought that these flies eat milk/butter/cream. For real! this is why they called the creatures like this….. the point is: this is a word composed from 2 other words. This explains the “sums”. As for the “incomplete formula” – Germanic languages, such as English, only have one set of pronouns. Unlike Romanian (which is a Romanic language), which uses several types of pronouns: personal, reflexive, reinforcing, possessive, demonstrative, indecisive, interrogative, relative, negative.

Ok, after this not so short intro —> once you grow up having to keep in mind all the grammar rules and all the spellings and everything, your mind gets mapped a certain way. Your syntax reflects a structured mind. Because of the variety of words, you are always faced with MANY possibilities, therefore your mind starts to see many ways of solving issues – just as an example, your perspective widens a lot.

The moment you start mastering multiple languages, your mind starts thinking in ALL of these languages. You will start having thoughts that start in English but end up, properly structured, in German or Dutch or Hindi. Sky is the limit.

As for reflecting the “you”: as long as YOU are flexible to learn new things, it means you are also flexible to understand different cultures and your mind opens, suddenly. Your racism diminishes, your misconceptions are deleted one by one etc.

Obviously, this is the ideal case – you might as well NOT learn anything new and just use the languages to.. call a cab.

What book should an INTP read?

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So, guys, recently I have started some sort of …..self discovery journey. I don’t have the right words yet, to describe it; I know for sure you all understand me, and how it goes when you are not yet done analyzing and you discover your words do not cover your actions yet…..you need to work on the narrative, right?

That being said, it all started when I first discovered MBTI. I was never into labelling and boxing people up. I find it narrow and selfish. Oh, just like the human mind, you are correct.

But MBTI, besides being a damn labeling/boxing method, it also gives some insight, especially into one’s sorrow, distress and sense of NOT belonging.

So, I went further and further…and after this very long ass introduction, behold:

The subtle art of not giving a fuck!

The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck – Wikipedia

Guys, trust me, you NEED to read this one. It is an eye opener.

Which Myers-Briggs personality type was Sigmund Freud?

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Disclaimer: Before we can start, MBTI was “invented” long after Freud died. Therefore, in order to begin to assess his personality, you all need to mark down:

  1. the fact that we only know him either through his work
  2. the fact that we only know him by the telltales of others.
  3. that his writing skills (same as many of us) do not represent the exact personality.
    1. e.g. you see my answer here and you might think: SHE is x,y,z; when in fact I can be a,b,c and you will never know.

There could be other things, but I cannot think about them right now (such as religion, environment, family was poor therefore he wanted to earn some money to support them and he might have done some things etc.)

Premises: So, first of all, we know this:

Based on these he is I(introvert):

  1. he did not actually have friends, or at least he did not get too attached
  2. he did not enjoy soirees that were very popular back then
  3. he did not actually show any interest in “human” aspects, such as socializing even if he had a “clinic” where people came to treat themselves..
  4. he enjoyed working in silent mode, parents had to move some furniture around the house to offer him SILENCE to study

Based on these he is N(intuitive):

  1. he was a visionary, very imaginative
  2. he cataloged things
  3. he “created” ideas based on what he observed
  4. he even imagined a new branch in Psychology (psychoanalysis)
  5. he hated public speaking
  6. he loved research
  7. he had many attempts to put down his thoughts (MANY) into a single written piece

Based on these he is F(feeling):

  1. his scope in life was to help others
  2. he wanted to reach the essence of any issue
  3. he was really stubborn, and he did not accept the fact that someone else was right and he was wrong
  4. he believed that his moral compass was working fine (until it didn’t anymore…)

Based on these he is P(perceive):

  1. he did not enjoy planning too much, he would rather be spontaneous
  2. he enjoyed a little adventure

Conclusion: He might have been an INFP but … Please feel free to add or to question everything. I myself am not even sure that the above is correct.

Do borderline people need routine?

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I would not say routine per se. I was not diagnosed officially with BPD, because I hate going to therapy. I prefer to deal with it in my own way and trust me it is not a piece of cake. But I prefer to know myself better and help myself the ways I can. So far, so good. I have seen many improvements with myself. My swings happen less and less; if you wish for me to detail this, let me know. Also note that I am a silent one, as in i am not a typical BPD. nobody knows I even suffer from this, nobody needs to know anyway.

So, routine topic: it is not really routine per se, but planning. Plan your upcoming day: when do I wake up, what do I do next etc. The plan helps you, first of all, organize the simple elements of your life – therefore create a routine (after 1 week you can already know what works for you and what does not). Example: I started my day with coffee and 1 cigarette. Right now I have dropped the morning cig. Cause it was causing me nausea. So I stick with just coffee.

After some practice, I started dropping toxic people from my life – the ones that were causing me triggers, the ones that were NOT the loved ones. I prefer to have 1–2 friends and share stuff with them, rather than befriend everyone. Obviously I struggle with Idealization/devalue everyday BUT i keep focus – I saved my friendship with those people because those are the only ones that MATTER to me.

I have started exercises, going to gym and all. It took me 2 years to decide what kind of sports/routines I most enjoy – but until then I tried everything.

I have also tried to find board games, computer games, any activity that would benefit my stabilization process – so guess what, I LOVE “Cards Against Humanity”, being a game that suits me as an individual.

Conclusion: start with small steps, end the comparison to other people’s lives. Start living YOUR life, as YOU like it. YOU are the one organizing it, you are the only one that actually knows what you like/dislike. Know yourself better!

Good luck!

How does time affect human behavior?

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There are some things that need clarification before this:

Time does not exist, it is a construct of human mind. Human behavior changes over time because *evolution* not because *time*.

Ok, so: as humans age, they develop their cognitive functions and they become masters of being themselves. What you could say is that age defines behavior.

Also, time settles in some aspects like: when you first tasted a banana maybe you didn’t really like it. Over time, you tried bananas many time and eventually decided that you like them. Same for long term relationships.

With getting old comes boldness/recklessness, meaning that at some point, you have lived long enough to not care anymore about petty stuff. And that’s when “what if” happens: what if I buy an expensive car? What if I divorce and go rogue! What if I sell everything and move to a tropical island?

Anyway, bottom line is that it’s not time per se but age/evolution that affects behavior.

Why do people tend to think they are more important than others?

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There was this guy, Maslow, who decided one day to put humans’ needs into distinct categories, from the most basic needs (e.g. food, sex) to the most complex ones ( e.g. self-actualization).

There is a category, upper middle, called “self-esteem”. The term is general therefore it comprises many aspects of the need called “self-esteem”, such as confidence and respect – respect for and mostly FROM others.

What does this mean? Well, it basically means that one needs to feel respected above being fed. Right? It means that for any given person, to be respected is important. How do you translate this into more words?

One needs to be recognized as valuable (respected for that). This means that YOU are valuable, I am valuable etc. In my mind, I deserve more than you cause my value is higher than yours, right? Therefore in my mind I am more important than you. Which means that you and all your friends and MY friends need to show me more respect, show me I am more valuable, therefore more important. Therefore the center of YOUR universe, not just mine!

There are ways, of course, to become aware of the traps, but many of us don’t really give a fuck; we don’t dive in, we don’t investigate and do not fix mistakes. WE JUST DEMAND.

Challenging the Times

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“Accept the challenges so that you can feel the exhilaration of victory.” – George S. Patton

Life is a challenge.

Imagine for a moment. You start by being the best swimmer – now this is a challenge! Then you enter this amazingly beautiful world, full of hopes, dreams.

By the age of 1, you are challenged to learn how to walk, next year to talk, then to become a social being and get some friends – kindergarten. Then your challenges become more and more difficult to pass: you are being challenged to become the best of your class, to go to the best college, to get the best job and earn enough money.

By the time you reach your 20s’ you already have a long track of challenges you passed; and all of them brought you here, to the current version of yourself. The individual that is not afraid to question life, people, stereotypes etc.

Then the challenges get even more aggressive as you start noticing small health issues…

We live in a very interesting era, from many points of view – political, social, psychological. Current times and conditions (i.e. social media, freedom of speech) have continuously turned us into a society of people that would practically do anything to get out of the anonymity. Starting from an early age, we feel the need to show to the whole world what we are capable of. This translates into teenagers eating Tide pods for show-off, individuals of all ages throwing ice cubes all over their bodies for show-off – totally forgetting why this challenge was created in the first place, kids signing up for the Momo challenge, and let’s not forget the Blue Whale episode. The list is longer. And the most important aspect is that: the more dangerous the challenge is, the more people will commit to it. How is it that imminent danger is the only thing that drives us now? And not to save our country and our independence… but to show the world that we are not afraid of some detergent in our digestive system?

Why do people these days feel the need to get out of the “many”? Why do we have this desire to be seen? To become visible? To become popular? Is social media the place where we now live our lives? Are we done visiting the world and actually meeting new people and new cultures? Are we done tasting all the exotic fruit out there? Are we done exploring the oceans? How about the space?

No but our goals have diminished considerably – we just want to be liked. We live to count the likes, we live to count the views. Our own validation does not come from within anymore – we need others to validate us.

So we engage in challenges, we film ourselves and… we publish. Then we wait for reactions, we wait for the validation of our tricks.

What if, for once, we used Digital Era on our behalf? What if we used social media to gather people? To help us fight for real causes, real challenges? What if we could actually help the whole world, and not just some petty ego? Why not help change perspectives? Why not use it to open minds, instead of just shutting our own minds down.

What if we could allow good causes to become popular? It would be amazing see more positive reactions from people, when in comes to the right causes/challenges; when it comes to real problems such as environment (#trashtag), abuses, poverty (#DanceforChange) and so on.